No promises on if I would post (not that anyone is concerned over that by now, eh?), but this spring I am going to go to Waubonsee CC for their drawing classes. I've decided to come into it as though I don't know how to do any drawing, and here is why:
For a long time I've ached over details and bashed my work because of my lack of technical skill. Going into learning how to draw from the ground up, there is a better chance of being able to find just what that technical skill is that I am lacking, and what is making me have so little faith in anything I do.
I taught myself, shamefully, through others works. (The works that have any copying or referencing from other artists I have already placed in scraps.) For a while I thought I was learning through this method, and in a way I was, but I could never get over the guilt that I was never taught properly. I used to wear this method of 'self teaching' as a badge, but not a shiny one lest people see me for who I was: A fake.
So now that I am in a stable financial situation I will be starting from the ground up, and allow myself to be taught properly how to draw, or paint, or what have you.I feel doing this will help me love my artwork again, instead of be ashamed of it every time I do a sketch, or a brush stroke.